There’s no doubt about, ya’ll. I’m going through a mid-life, reflection-ish phase in my life.
My kids are growing up faster than I’d like, my mom suffered a heart attack earlier this year and I’m halfway to 42…officially “IN my forties”.
Where did the time go?
I think because I’m 4’10″ and continued to get carded until I was 35 (and had kids later in life) I’ve been able to “feel” young for a long time. But lately I’ve been really AWARE of the time passing and I’m starting to FEEL older.
I worked in “corporate” for years before starting my own business in my mid thirties – a “semi” second act that allowed me to get back to writing (and out of management) and be around more for my kids.
Freelance writing for publications and small businesses is fun and I love what I do but I love to write creatively. I started my blog, Still Living The Dream, a couple years ago so I could write whatever I wanted to. A short story, poem, art project, review of a good book…a free forum to share my thoughts and allow me to write with as many of these (….) as I wanted!
And I had one follower!
Well maybe two, but in the beginning – I just needed a venue to express myself.
Then more people found me and liked what I was writing. And I found that mothers, especially those juggling work and raising young kids, could relate to the stories I shared about moments where I could have done a bit better in the parenting department. And laughter brought us together as a community.
I love my readers and have fun with my blog. It’s not one of the biggest on the block and that’s ok. But I’m finding myself in a stage of discontent again. And I know it’s time to change things up. I need to challenge myself.
So here’s my plan.
I’m going to tackle my life list. From act in a play to visit Paris – I’ve compiled a list of things I want to do and I need to start looking at it more and making my dreams a reality. Specifically, I want to concentrate on these:
1. Hit life list #45 (Get Healthy) hard. I’ve gained a lot of weight and it’s dragging me down physically and mentally. I’m going to figure out a plan to eat healthier and incorporate exercise into my daily routine.
2. Go after #3 (get published in a national magazine) and then #6 (write a book) with intensity. Pitching my work and making contacts with magazine editors has been a hard thing for me to do. I feel like I should be spending my time with assignments that come my way and are a “sure thing”. I need to shift my thinking and take a risk! AND….I need to spend more time everyday working on my writing. In the process, I want to grow my blog so I can reach even more people!
3. Realize that I may not ever accomplish #7 fully (kick depression’s ass). It’s most likely going to be something I deal with from time-to-time for the rest of my life. BUT, if I’m healthier and working towards making my dreams a reality…it’s likely that my anxiety will quiet down, too. And when it’s not, I’ll continue to use humor to get my through the rough spots!
So tell me, do you have life list?
Are you ready for act two in your life?
Are you Living Your Dream?